Nowhere to Go but Up
I don’t know how, after investing so much time, sweat, and energy, I ever let myself gain back as much weight as I have. It’s truly difficult to describe all the ways I fell on my face to let it happen.
It’s important to understand the “why” to make sure it doesn’t happen again, but today I don’t want to dwell on that. I don’t want to focus on the fall. I want to focus on the getting back up!
Something clicked yesterday, like the last piece of a puzzle, and left me feeling that this is the rock-bottom, this is where it stops, or where it begins again, depending how I choose to look at it.
Last week was a good beginning. I scheduled my workouts and got myself rolling again with expecting to exercise, expecting to move and work for what I want. I cut the bullshit and realized I have everything I need to move toward my goals again. I have a stash of workout DVD’s, I have a small gym nearby with treadmills and an elliptical trainer, and I have a boyfriend who encourages me, supports me, and lets me know he thinks I’m beautiful just the way I am, which makes me want to work even harder :)
I know what I need to work on (eating habits, and drinking too much soda) but typing a blog post about it won’t do a thing. I need to make changes, follow through, and stay consistent. Making promises and joining challenges won’t mean a thing without the day to day choices and actions that are healthy.
So…I woke up feeling like today is truly a new day, the first day of a new journey, and that I am finally geared up with realistic expectations in order to finish the ride. I’ve started the day strong with one can of soda to fend off headaches and grumpiness (hey, it’s like crack to some of us!), and once that was empty, I switched to water and Fuze. I’ve been filling in my food diary, I’ve planned out most of tomorrow’s meals already, and I’m going to work out as soon as I get home from work.
I am determined that I will go nowhere, from here on, except closer to my goals. I deserve that much from myself!
XML Feed
Ur right, the Why? is the hardest part to figure out. I know mine was for comfort and I am going to refuse to ever turn to food again for comfort. I know it is different for everyone and it sure helped me getting outoif a toxic relationship cause I just didnt need the food for comfort anymore. I lost the first 15 without even trying. You are STRONg and determined, MJ. I have all the faith in u, sweetheart !
Thank you!
Part of my “why” was convincing myself it was only 5 pounds, it was only 10 pounds, until it got out of control. I have learned that maintaining a weekly weigh in and taking care of that one pound or two right away will keep me where I want to be, instead of avoiding the scale so I don’t really know the damage!
WHOO HOOO! Great blog and great attitudeeeee!
MJ, if there’s anyone who can get back on the right track - it’s you! How’s the soda cutback coming?
Actually not as bad as I thought it would be! Tomorrow will be a no-soda day. Cutting off today should help with the withdrawal symptoms
I have no doubt that you can do it! Determination like that will get you up there in the clouds just like that pic! I love it!!! Great blog!
Girl, I am so with you!! I have been out of the loop myself lately, wondering why I cant seem to gain control. I can feel your frustration when you say you dont know why you let yourself gain after working so hard to lose it. That was what I was just telling myself over the weekend. I know that if I keep doing what I have been doing I am gonna gain. Plain and simple. Its not brain surgery or rocket science. So now is the time to get control again.
Good luck!
I have diet soda withdrawl too. It is so hard but you just got to tell yourself it’s worth it and go for it.
This is a great blog. You helped me to realize I have everything in my power to get me back on track. I keep telling myself I will start working out again this day and that day comes and I don’t the only thing helping me is I’m staying on track with eating if it wasn’t for that I would end up where you did and obviously you didn’t like that and I know I wouldn’t either. Thanks for the great blog and book recommendation I and up for trying and reading new things so I will check it out.
I love it. You made me see I have all I need to keep going, been feeling a lull, but after reading this, I see I have it all in front of me. You will do it, and I can too